feelings into words

I think its times to finally put my feelings into words about what has happened this past week.
I was scared to death, and actually haven't even been able to talk about it, and have been holding it inside for days and days.
Last Wednesday I had random unexplained bright red blood and clots after I used the restroom. I went straight to the ER where it had stopped by the time that I arrived. Actually it stopped just as fast as it started.
At the ER (labor and delivery) they hooked me up to machines, and contraction machines, and couldn't find out a reason for any of it. My mother frantically rushed down here and was here along with Gregg.
I was sent home with a scheduled ultrasound the very next day (thursday) at my specialist for a high tech ultrasound (which is like an mri of the uterus) that's how high tech it is. Well.... I went and again they said if I would have not told them that I had bleeding and clots they would never have known because all is normal with my babies and with me.
When it comes to my feeling I like to hold in a lot of my fears and emotions. That is why it has taken days for me to even tell very many people. I don't know why I had random bleeding, and probably will never know. Everything looks fine via ultrasound, doppler and everything else
Many people (of the few that knew) were and have been praying for me, and so I am going to write this one down as another miracle of God, since my human brain doesn't know anything different.
Here we are 1 week later and I have not had 1 drop of blood more, and we are fast approaching 21 weeks (as of tomorrow.) I have now been put on very light rest (not to fullest extent of bed rest, but on every other kind of rest you can imagine.)Please continue to keep my girls in your prayers, and for a full term delivery. I think by the time this pregnancy is over I might have no energy left. But.. as long as both of my girls are healthy I could care less