feelings into words

I think its times to finally put my feelings into words about what has happened this past week.
I was scared to death, and actually haven't even been able to talk about it, and have been holding it inside for days and days.
Last Wednesday I had random unexplained bright red blood and clots after I used the restroom. I went straight to the ER where it had stopped by the time that I arrived. Actually it stopped just as fast as it started.
At the ER (labor and delivery) they hooked me up to machines, and contraction machines, and couldn't find out a reason for any of it. My mother frantically rushed down here and was here along with Gregg.
I was sent home with a scheduled ultrasound the very next day (thursday) at my specialist for a high tech ultrasound (which is like an mri of the uterus) that's how high tech it is. Well.... I went and again they said if I would have not told them that I had bleeding and clots they would never have known because all is normal with my babies and with me.
When it comes to my feeling I like to hold in a lot of my fears and emotions. That is why it has taken days for me to even tell very many people. I don't know why I had random bleeding, and probably will never know. Everything looks fine via ultrasound, doppler and everything else
Many people (of the few that knew) were and have been praying for me, and so I am going to write this one down as another miracle of God, since my human brain doesn't know anything different.
Here we are 1 week later and I have not had 1 drop of blood more, and we are fast approaching 21 weeks (as of tomorrow.) I have now been put on very light rest (not to fullest extent of bed rest, but on every other kind of rest you can imagine.)Please continue to keep my girls in your prayers, and for a full term delivery. I think by the time this pregnancy is over I might have no energy left. But.. as long as both of my girls are healthy I could care less

Well......

So..yesterday I ended up going to the ER. I was having pressure in my lower stomach that had started thursday night. My doctor told me to head over to the ER so I did. I hate going to the ER because time always stops there. Anyways, after 4 hours there and blood tests, urine tests and an ultrasound. The conclusion to me pain was "we dont know". UGH so annoying!!

So..the babies both look good on the ultrasound, my cervix is closed and I have no bleeding. Its annoying since I still have the pain and a stomachache, but I am chalking it up for now as a twin pregnancy and growing pains. I am set to see the specialist next thursday, so I will just hve to wait until then to see if they say anything different which I doubt they will (so please pray for me and the girls.)

They measured last night on the ultrasound 10 and 11 ounces (a lot biggger than just 1 week ago), its crazy how fast they grow.
I have now been put on "bedrest" but not to the fullest extent, I can walk around my house but am not able to go anywhere. Bummer! But I will do anything for these girls.

Gregg is now Mr.Mom. Cooking dinner, running to the grocery store. Cleaning the house, at least he is willing to help out. :) On a side note, I had a weird dream last night that when the babies were born that they came our boys! Haha!!! Very weird since they have been confirmed girls 4x now. Anyways thats whats going on in my world.
Have a great Saturday!

This moment could last forever!

I saw my girls today!!!! It was so spectacular. It was 2 hours of pure joy!!!!! They are doing very well, and are perfect. They measured all of there fluids, and there is no sign of twin to twin transfusion. They are both measuring the same. 7 inches long, and there sizes are 7 ounces and 8 ounces. Yes still so very small, but they have grown from 2 1/2 inches at 12 weeks to 7 inches at 18 weeks. They have now flipped and instead of being one on top of my belly button and one on bottom, now there is one girl on each side of my stomach. Silly little girls! They were snuggling up to each other (membrane dividing them), but still they are little cuddle bugs.
We are so in love. They are just gorgeous!! We were able to see both of there profiles, and from the looks of it they have the "Mastny" (my moms side) nose (which is small just like mine.) Yay!!!!! They are so teeny there bone structure is so small and they are just the cutest little babies.
Thank you all for praying it couldn't have been better with the girls!! They also confirmed today 100% that they are in fact 2 little girls (so the gender bump theory worked for us.) We will be seeing them every few weeks now since I am getting further along in my pregnancy. I can't believe that today is exactly half way. They will be here in no time considering how fast these first 18 weeks flew by!

I do have something called low lying placenta but they said there is nothing to worry about, and since it is still so early that they expect that to correct itself. That just has to do with whether I will have to have a c-section or a natural birth. But depending on how one of them is turned I might end up having to have a c-section anyways.
This pregnancy thus far has just been absolutely perfect, I couldn't have asked for more. God has been so good to us, and these girls are truly a testimony at how great of a God He is!!!

Can't wait to see you again!!!

Hello girls tomorrow is mommies 18 week ultrasound. I can't wait to see you two!!! This whole pregnancy has been so surreal. I have to keep reminding myself that I am even pregnant (as God has blessed me with no horrible symptoms). Your dad says that my tummy is getting bigger, but I don't see it.
Every once in awhile I will feel the weirdest little feelings in my tummy (but definitely NOT kicks.) Just a little feeling enough to make me smile.
You two are such a blessing to us, and me and your dad are beyond words excited to welcome you two into our family!!! God has surely blessed us, and your mommy and daddy already love you two so very much. Well I guess we will see you tomorrow! And soon enough we will be able to hold you both in our arms, something that we have waited for since the first day that we met. You both have been in our prayers since day 1 and remember that many many others are also praying for you two our identical blessings.
Love Mommy

Its the weekend!

Today is FRIDAY!!! I love weekends, I get to spend all weekend with my husband, and church!!!
This weekend is the "food bank" in which I volunteer at church. I love helping out and helping others, it really is the highlight of my week. I also love hanging out with my friends there.

But....this weekend I will also be hanging out with one of my best friends Niki. She is driving down tonight to help me purge and clean our the "babies" room. Right now I just have baby stuff in there but its not sorted through, and it has also become my "scrap booking" area also. So... hopefully we can get a lot done tomorrow to make room for "The Girls."

These upcoming weeks and months will be really busy. I am surprised at how fast it is going by. I have known of my pregnancy since week 3. Even though that seems so long ago, for me it has really flown by. Gregg sometimes thinks that we have all the time in the world, but I am glad that I am able to remind him of how fast the time is flying by and every week is one more week closer to holding our identical blessings!!!

This is my first blog

Hello and welcome to my pregnancy blog. I am SO excited to finally get this up and running so that I can start writing down my feelings, and thoughts about this pregnancy.
The Lord has blessed Gregg and I with 2 identical twin girls. Yes!!! I am currently pregnant with identical twins. We are SO SO excited, and are so pleasantly humbled that he would allow us the opportunity to raise twins.

We actually have been praying for this moment for years. A little secret that you might not have known about us, but we have been praying for a few years for twins. We always thought what a blessing it would be to have twins, and here we are. Well of course you know that we want 4-7 kids, its just our hearts desire for a large family.
Now knowing that we are having identical twins let me answer some of the questions that you might be asking. (that are common to ask)
1. Are your babies identical or fraternal?
Our babies are identical.

2. Do they run in the family?
Actually only fraternal twins are hereditary. Identical twins are "a blessing from God" identical twins come from when the females 1 egg splits in half.

Fraternal twins are like I said hereditary but of course come from 2 eggs, which makes them "different". Also an interesting known fact is that fraternal twins do not come from the paternal side either, only from the maternal side of the family (the female)

But.... again our babies are identical (the 1 egg split) and so they have nothing to do with being in the family.

3. Were they conceived naturally??
The answer to that is OF COURSE! God chose to bless us, and we didn't need anything else than God. These girls are definitely our blessings.

We will definitely have our hands full as 2 babies at once are a handful. They are not like having 2 babies under the age of 2, or a one year old and newborn. NO they are 2 babies the same age and go through each stage together.

If you have any other questions just ask. As this is much easier to put for everyone to see than answer everyone's questions daily.

Yesterday I celebrated 17 weeks pregnant with my 2 blessings. This pregnancy so far has been wonderful well as being pregnant is concerned. Seeing my bronchitis/pnemonia that I had last month, I have not been sick hardly at all with my baby girls.
I did have sickness from weeks 5-7, but that went away fast, I think that the worst symptom that I have had so far is in the beginning (first 8 weeks) of pregnancy, my face broke out like pizza. Now I know why (because I was kicking double hormones.) But that is much better now.

The other thing since they are identical they "live" in the same sac. Which of course is a "high risk" pregnancy since more things can go wrong. They are "separated" by a membrane in that sac where they cant get to each other but they do share the same placenta. Which brings up ttts (twin to twin transfusion syndrome.) TTTS is when one of the babies takes more of the nutrients than the other (not on purpose), and a lot can go wrong when that happens. For this reason I am drinking extra protein 2x daily (carnation instant breakfast), to help get them more nutrients.
I am seeing a specialist doctor along with my OB, and am getting more ultrasounds to check for ttts, my next ultrasound is next Wednesday (March 10th), so you can pray that they will still be doing well in there mommy tummy and growing well.

Well that about sums everything up, the girls original due date was August 11th, but full term for twins is 36-37 weeks so that would be the middle of July. Lets just pray that they make it that far.